A little more focus … Please?

Having been a procrastinator all of my life, I perceive there are two different types. The apathetic procrastinator and the impatient procrastinator.

The apathetic procrastinator, or the AP, is distinguished by not really caring if they (he or she) finishes their goal. The idea sounded cool, for a moment, but if it get’s done what’s it really going to matter? There’s a bit of self-loathing involved and the AP can’t really see the reward in finishing the project and accomplish their goal.

APs have somewhat of an Eeyore complex. Oh, bother.

On the other hand, you have the impatient procrastinator, IPs. These people have stars in their eyes. They’ve won the game, the award, the accolades before even starting their project. They’re in love with the idea for about 5 seconds. Then the crashing reality that that game, those awards and accolades are months, years, maybe a decade away. They can’t wait that long, they can’t put all that effort and time and get nothing. The drive and dedication dries up like a prairie rain storm.

IPs really want to be stars, but would rather start something new than see the project all the way to the end. Real fly-by-nighters.

Me, I’m a bit bi-polar with my procrastination. I genuinely start with tons of ambition and gusto, then get hit simultaneously with the feeling I’ll never get to the end and if I do, no one cares. Or at least that’s the way I feel. And to top it off, I often get hit with too many ideas. Where to start, how to start?

I thought I was cured for a while. I was focusing on one thing, now I can’t find focus on anything. Just a lot of buzzing around my head followed by a ton of self-doubt.

I’m going change though. I’ve fiddled away the last 15+ years with this kind of nonsense. Sure there were other reasons, but that just falls to the core of all procrastinators. Excuses.

I don’t need anymore excuses. Time to get focused and put those projects out there to speak for themselves. Stop the dreaming and the despairing.

In the immortal words of the most famous redneck, “Time to Git’r Done!”